Some Infinities.. are Bigger than Other Infinities (I Miss You)

Today is Friday, August 21^st, 2020,

And once again I’m reminded of my failures, and the things that I wish I could’ve done better.  Things I felt like I should have done better.

So here’s my question to you…

What’s the craziest thing you’ve ever done?

Nine-years ago today, with the help and support of my mom, I adopted my very first pet.  Yes, we’d had a dog in the past, and I’d had silly little hermit crabs that would die in a week or so but this was different.  I purchased Lestat, a corn snake, with my own money, given to me by my little brother’s father for some kind of holiday, I think.

Without my grandmother’s permission.

And now today, I’m celebrating without both of them. 

And just thinking about it is crazy…

I still think of your little face often, and I know that without you, I never would’ve done half of the things that I’m doing right now.  You opened up a doorway for me.  You taught me respect, responsibility, and how to love something unconditionally.

Every day with you was a learning experience.  Every day with you was filled with love, and happiness, and wonder.

You were the best friend that I didn’t know I needed, didn’t know I wanted.

The tiny heart that I didn’t know needed me until I brought you home.

And I didn’t realize it at the time that you were the thing that made it home.

Mom and I snuck you into the house while grandma was at work, she helped me set up your home on my desk.  Took me to get you food every 3-4 days because baby corn snakes eat a lot.  She took me to garage sales to find you things until we finally found you the perfect little castle that you hid in, and lived in, and loved until you got too big and you outgrew it.

Even my grandmother learned to love you once I finally told her about you.

My little brother loved you.

Everyone who met you loved you because your big brown eyes, quirky personality, and ability to brighten up everyone’s day was so out of the ordinary for ‘just a snake.’ 

I miss you every single day.

Until we meet again, sweet baby.

Lord Lestat de Lioncourt, the Brat Prince 8/21/2011-1/30/2017