Inspiration.

          What a strange word.

          I’ve noticed that inspiration doesn’t come- at least not for me- when I want or expect it. In fact, it tends to come when I don’t want it, when I want nothing to do with it, and when I need to rest. Tonight, when I came home from work, and my Grandma helped me build a tiny rat garden, like one that I saw on TikTok when I couldn’t sleep the other night. Sadly, the girls ripped it apart before I could get any good pictures, but you know what? They had fun, so that’s okay, and I know now that when I have the time and energy, I’m going to have to build another one for them. (I’ll probably get them some more edible plants and herbs from Home Depot next week.)

 Last night, I lay down around 9:30-10:00pm because I wasn’t feeling well. I turned on a movie, crawled under my blankets, and snuggled up to my dog, fully expecting to fall asleep quickly but, instead I found myself interested in the movie. It was a Lifetime adaptation of a book called Heaven from an author that I somewhat enjoy V.C. Andrews. (The same author who wrote the Flowers in the Attic books.) Somehow, that turned into me watching all four of the movies they made that were based on the Heaven Casteel books- which I’m kind of considering reading now that I’ve seen the movies.

          After that, despite feeling exhausted, I somehow wound up in a hot bath with bath salts, an almond oil bath bomb and started reading a new book called The Iron King by Julie Kagawa on my Kindle. I’d heard of the series before over the past few years, and in need of some relaxation, I figured why the hell not.

          That’s when I sat down and originally started writing this post- which I’m pretty sure you can tell didn’t get finished last night like I’d wanted it to. And you know what, that’s okay. Sometimes we set goals for ourselves, and we really want to meet those goals, and if we don’t we beat ourselves up, and I don’t think that’s right. I think that if you want to do something- like writing and posting a blog post- but you aren’t feeling well enough either mentally or physically, but you try, then you haven’t failed.

          We need to put a lot more stock in trying. I f we don’t people will keep thinking that they’re a failure if they don’t always complete something on time, or they’ll put less value on their mental and physical wellbeing. Today for example, I plan to do absolutely, 100% nothing. I am mentally, physically, and emotionally exhausted. So, I plan on spending the day trying to rest and recuperate my energy.

          Maybe that means I’ll do some reading. Maybe that means I’ll write a bit or watch a movie. I don’t know. What I do know for now is that rainy Thursday afternoons are good for coffee, pizza, and Studio Ghibli movies. Today’s movie is Earwig and the Witch.

-Sky