I didn’t really plan on writing a post for today. I thought that maybe, I could just skate by, and pretend like it wasn’t July, and like CampNaNoWriMo wasn’t in full swing. Because, before I found out that I had to have the DRG trial surgery on Wednesday, I decided I wanted to participate in Camo NaNoWriMo.
I came to this decision for two reasons. First, is that I let myself off the hook way too easily when it comes to my writing. If I get hurt, or have surgery, or a stressful doctor’s appointment, I tell myself that it’s okay, and I’ll try again next time. I never stop and say no, I need to do this for me. Secondly, I want to myself and my mom proud- even if she isn’t here anymore.
Originally, I thought that this was me being gentle with myself but, I was wrong. Because, every time I would allow myself to give up, I would feel bad about it. I would feel like I was letting myself and everyone around me down. Even if I did give myself “permission” to give up…
So, this year, I am doing Camp NaNoWriMo. Am I going to reach the 50,000 words in 30-days goal? Maybe. Maybe not. So, instead, I’m going to place a new goal for myself. I want to write as much as I can in the 30-days no matter how many doctor’s appointments, procedures, or whatnot I have going on in my life.
-Sky
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