I’m Just Tired…

          I really just don’t have anymore energy…

          For legitimately anything. I mean it. Things have been pretty bad lately, I’ve felt sick, exhausted, dizzy, and just all-around out of it. Nothing feels like it’s going right. Last week the washing machine broke- and so we’ve been wearing things we don’t normally wear since the favorite clothing was dirty and actually went into the broken washer. That’s how we found out it was broken because, it would fill up, and when it was time to spin/wash, it would just make an awful metal on metal grinding kind of screeching sound.

          This means that my brand-new Jack Skellington nightgown was ruined.

          Thankfully, aside from some bleaching and lightening on some other pieces, and one pair of undies that’s the extent of the casualties when it comes to ruined clothing. I’m upset, and frustrated, and unhappy about it, honestly. How can I not be? I love my Skellington stuff, and having something of mine ruined, especially something that hasn’t been mine very long? Heartbreaking for me.

          In the past 2-weeks I’ve also had a boatload of doctor’s appointments. No, really, way too many appointments. I’ve gone to the podiatrist, I’ve had my leg braces fitted, I’ve had 3 blood tests. (Yes, three.) And finally, I’ve also had my allergy shots on Monday, and on Tuesday I went back to the doctor to get all of the results from the blood tests. Turns out, I have an autoimmune disease (but we knew that- however, lupus was ruled out, thankfully!) they don’t know what exactly, since it was just a basic test. And, they want me to go see a hematologist because my red blood cells and white blood cells have been elevated for quite awhile now, and we want to look into that and get some more information.

          Things have just been stressful lately.

          And the stress just keeps rising because, on September 14^th I’m having surgery again. I have to have the DRG revision done since the leads have moved, and I am most definitely not looking forward to it. I’m anxious and frustrated about the surgery- especially since I was supposed to see a neurologist before this surgery to get tested for EDS (Ehlers-Danlos syndrome) and POTS (Postural orthostatic tachycardia syndrome) but, the soonest I could find a neurologist that will see me is December so… I mean, what can you do?

          I’ve also been watching Stranger Things with Angel for the first time lately. (No spoilers.)

          So, todays plan is to write out a couple more posts if I can, that way, even if I’m not feeling well (especially after surgery) I can have a couple of drafts to post because I know I’ve been kind of slacking lately, due to my health.

          Until next time.

          -Sky