CW: Mental Health
So, where have I been, and why?
Quite honestly, the answer is that I’ve been right here, where I’ve always been. The month of December however, is just a really stressful time with me, especially with my aunt here. Yep, you read that right, she’s back. If you don’t know some of the drama going on with me and my aunt, I can link one here and here. If you didn’t know, having a mental illness is not an excuse to be a crappy person. (Just saying.)
Yeah, as you can probably imagine, not doing so well mentally.
As always, things started out okay-ish. Until they weren’t. So, until she leaves I’m probably not going to be posting much. On top of that I’m in a little bit of a writer’s block phase. But, it’s hard to write books, be creative, and feel okay when you’re being screamed at for what feels like breathing too loudly. I cannot wait until I’m posting normally again, and she’s gone, and I can actually feel like a person again. I hate having her hear, where I become a second class citizen. (My grandma would say that I’m being overdramatic- I can put money on it. If she reads this, she’s going to tell me I need to learn to “let things go” and that it’s give and take.)
I say that there is nothing “give and take” about my aunt using her mental illness to verbally abuse me, put her hands on me, and then accuse me of causing my own health problems based upon the way I buy our groceries. -a story I will tell once she’s gone. For now, I’m going to go try to sleep because, there isn’t very many hours in which the house is quiet and she’s not shrieking like a banshee.
-Sky
Skyla N. Lambert
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