TW: Medical, Mental Health, Pet Loss, Fourth Wing, Onyx Storm
Wow, okay. So, let’s see if I even remember how to write one of these.
Let’s start by saying, no, I didn’t die. I didn’t fall off the face of the earth. I just kind of stopped existing in writer’s spaces for a little while. Writer’s block and impostor syndrome has been kicking my ass. And so has the inevitable book hangover that I knew was coming after reading Rebecca Yarros’ Onyx Storm. [Don’t worry, no spoilers. I will be writing a review both here and on Goodreads though.]
So, what does all of that mean for the blog, and everything else?
Honestly, I don’t know because, every time I try to sit down and write one of these, I feel like something gets in my way- be it my mental or physical health. My depression has been at an all-time high lately, and some might blame that on the political climate of the United States right now, or maybe the weather fluctuations out here in the Midwest, either way, the ups and downs are stressful. I wish that they weren’t.
On top of that, unfortunately, we’ve been going through a lot of loss here, which I know has added to the state of my mental health. Several of our pet rats, Dango, Matcha, Sesame, and Yuzu have passed away, and we’ve made the hard decision that when the remaining girls- Dumpling and Mochi cross the rainbow bridge in the next few months, we’re not going to be getting anymore. Rats, unfortunately, have very short lifespans, and we’ve decided they’re just not for us.
Along with that, our last sugar glider, Bowie, also passed away this past month, leaving us feeling sad and empty. However, we’ve decided to get out of small animals, while we may love them, my health isn’t the best and having a bunch of little critters to take care of is a lot of work, and when they inevitably pass away after such a short amount of time, it just hurts me too much.
But I do want to start writing again- both here, and on my projects- I know a certain someone is still terrorizing me for a novel. But I think that’s all I have in me for now. I’m going to try and figure out some kind of post schedule, and hopefully, I’ll be back at it again soon.
Happy Monday.
-Sky
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